On Resisting God's Plan
Oh God, what do you have for me this day?
I’ve been repeating this lately. Particularly in the morning, but also when I just need to feel His presence. Have you ever intentionally, or unintentionally, pushed away from God’s plan…or rather, tried to seek out your own?
I speak from experience – and to be honest, it’s exhausting. There’s something sacred about accepting and truly flourishing in the situation that God has given you, even if it’s not the place you expected to be. I realized in the last year I spent too much time resisting the timeline that the Lord has been so committed in communicating with me. Whether it be concerning my employment, my housing, or my friendships, I resisted. Trying to please everyone, I turned an ear away from His words.
The thing is, it was easier than I thought to not listen. It was easy to seek the advice of only my friends. During that long commute that provided me ample prayer time, it was easier to turn up the music than to listen for His sweet wisdom.
The result: anxiety, stubbornness, confusion, and frustration. While I thought I was giving God my life to mold, I was still clenching on to certain pieces that I wanted to control.
A little tip if you’re ever in this situation, surrender those pieces. I’m still in the process of learning to do this, but I can tell you there’s no fruit in fighting God’s plan. He knows you so well. Rest in that. He knows your dreams, aspirations, and needs. Instead of always trying to lean on your own understanding, bow your head and listen.
Culture tells us to make plans; plans with sometimes five to 10 to 20 year timelines. And those can be good, in the right time and place, but don’t be afraid to ask for truth by the day, hour, or even by the minute.
I find that even when I don’t know what to say, or how to organize my thoughts, a simple prayer for guidance is the best thing to do. While He may not give you an answer right away, or for that matter, an answer at all--you’re trusting in Him. Letting go of that need to schedule, and plan, and have all the answers is so incredibly freeing.